ahha. jierong. i bet u are very puzzled why i went ytd. let me tell u all abt it!

it was his bday ytd. i wanted to give him sum chocolates..
but yea.. better not.
why did i go out with him?
despite so many friends asked me not to.
ok la.. his frineds kept urging me to go meet him ya la..
but my firneds dun like the idea.
(oo but lester nv ask me dun go.. he still "go la go la" tskk stupid boy)
well... simple. cuz i noe he needed me
and i never wanne be like him.
not in the past, not now, not in the future.
he wasnt alwyas there when i needed him.

i dun wanan be like him.
and though theres nothign between us,
i jzu wan him to be happi simply becus i care. but..
with him..
there seems to be a barrier between us.
its so awkward. we feel so much yet say so little ya?
though i duno wad he has to say but i do hope he's happi.
yuppies.

with him, i feel like im the baddie.
uh huh yesh la hes treated me like shit for sumtime...

but then... i also no need to like... keep on smsing lester bla blabla
then make him feel so blue mahs.. of cuz its nt on purpose la..
i jzu wnana let lester noe that even with nelson ,
he'll still alwyas be on my mind and im not letting dwn,
thats why i reply his messages. but its like..

i noe its making nelson super sad. esp on his bday. but wad can i do??
man im so sorry. very guilty.

i bet hes tinking why i have so much patience with lester but not with him...
haxhax u noe wad?
its good that nelson is seeing this becuse when i love sum1,
i dun show that person wad im doing for him. thats why lester doesnt know.
and nw that nelson see this, he should realise that i hav done alot alot for him too,
well, in the past of cuz.

wad ever he sees that im doing for lester,
its probably only about 1 % of wad i did for him in the past.
he juz dint noe it.
he juz dint noe it. hey hey hey wait. its not that i dn love lester enough k!!! its juz that the times that we've been together is like..
2 mths only? hw to accomplish so much?

ahahx... u noe jierong..
its funny hw he dare not look at me yet ask me to go out with him. hmm.
hav i changed?
why he dun dare look at me lei?
well we can still be friends ah?
yea la my feelings for him died completely but i stil wan the friendship ah.

though i was hurt but then i forgive him ah.. i jzu dun forget thats all. lol... ahahs...

all things happen for a reason... so.. to all out there.. u all muz make the right move. canot regret.. cuz wads done is done. there are things where no regrets can bring them back. jierong, ya? ahahx. =)